Happy Father's Day, Dad. I miss you, and I love you. I am sure you see what is going on with me right now, and I only hope I am making you proud. No US Open this year, which is fine. Please ask the big guy to guide over me. I am ready to completely turn myself over to Him to do with as thy will. Thinking of you as always, waiting until the day that I can see you again.

Hi dad. Things are really crazy here right now. We are in the middle of a crazy virus breakout. Every thing is shut down. If you were still here, I bet you would be working on finding out what is going on. You never really wanted to talk about your job, which I understand, but mom tells me you would have been all over this. There are no sports, concerts, restaurants, or any gatherings of any sort. And it will be like this for quite some time, yet.

Easter is going to be a tough day (although I have always hated Easter) as I will not be able to have dinner with mom. I will still go and do a driveway stop by with her. I think that she is handling this whole thing better than I am.

The Bills have been doing well. They made the playoffs two out of the last three years. Two years ago, it took Cincinnati beating Baltimore on a last second play to get the Bills into the playoffs. Cincinnati's QB, Andy Dalton, has a charity. After they won, Bills Mafia started flooding that charity with $17 donations. The 17 represented the number of years the Bills had missed the playoffs. We raised about $500,000 for him. Last year the Bills made it on their own with no help. The Sabres are a mess and I would rather not talk about them.

It's funny, just a couple of years ago I would have said that I would not care if I died. But now, I am scared. As much as I would love to see you (even though I am kind of an atheist), I am not ready yet. I want to get better and truly become the person I know I am inside. I just have a major problem. I am sure you know what that is. So I promise you, I am going to try my hardest to beat this disease. Sometimes I feel like I let you down. The hardest day in my life was when we were driving to a Bills game after I failed out of UB and you broke down in tears. That day should have changed my life. But, my disease runs deep. Very, very deep. And dark. I am going to get better. I am going to get though my problems and get through this crazy time we are dealing with down here right now.

Lastly, I just want to thank you. Thank you for being my dad. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for giving me a great place to grow up with a nice place to live. All of my problems are my own. And I take full responsibility. I miss you so much. I can not wait to see you again some day and I can not wait to talk to you in person again someday. But if it is OK with you, I would like to wait a little bit longer. I promise you I will be a better man at that time.

I love you.

Happy Fathers Day, Dad!

Hi dad. I miss you. Wish I could talk to you. Love you.

Merry Christmas, Dad. Miss you and love you.

Happy Birthday, Dad. I love you and miss you.

I miss you, Dad. The past two years have been the most darkest, loneliness years of my life. I wish you were here to talk to me. There is not anybody here that I feel comfortable with to fully open up to and tell them what I am going through. I am truly scared. I lost someone who was very special to me, and I don't think I will ever find that again.

I am doing my best to try to get through these tough times, but I think about you a lot. I know you would just listen to me and never judge.

Things with mom and me are going really great. Regardless of what I have been going through, that past two years with her have been better than the past twenty. We understand each other, help each other, and say "I love you" more than ever.

Sometimes I wish you had a burial where I could come and visit to talk. I know it would be much more frequent than this.

The Bills still suck, but the Sabres have a lot of hope. I am now a much more Sabre fan than Bills fan. They drafted this guy named Jack Eichel. His rookie season was really good. He should be a top 5 player in the NHL soon. I am just hoping to see a championship in my lifetime. You got to see the AFL Bills win, so you have that going for you.

Well, I don't know. I hope you know how much I love you and miss you. I would do anything to talk to you one more time. Maybe this is the way to do it. Hope to talk to you soon.

I love you Dad.

Sure, my college life never ended up what was expected of me when I was younger. But my dad never wavered in his support of mine as I fumbled my way through that part of my life.

I still remember the day that received the diploma in the mail for a no good degree and a note that I made the Dean's List.

A kiss on the cheek from my dad. And that made me feel like I accomplished something.

My dad was a strict man. Not to the point that it was overbearing, but he believed in discipline and I have always respected him for that. Heck, there are many of traits that I have from my father that I am glad to have gained.

But being strict does not mean you are not loving. My greatest memories of what kind of man my father was have come in his strictest moments.

There have been a night or two in my childhood in which my father had become angry with me. Probably rightfully so. And he would send me to bed, crying as I always would. But something would always happen that night before I fell asleep. Dad would come to my bed, and apologize. Gently rubbing my legs telling me it was over and he was sorry. And that he loved me.

My dad would discipline me, but never let me go to sleep being upset.

I love you dad. Miss you.

Three years ago this night you left us and I miss you so much, dad. I wish you could see my house and meet my girlfriend. Looking at the old pictures of you makes me think that I did not learn enough about you as a person when you were here. You were always just "dad". Hopefully I we can make up for that in the next life. Love you. Cheers.

Dear Deenie: I've lost a good friend. From shared experiences as graduate students at U.B., to shared roles as Best Man in each other's wedding, my memories remain strong. I remember your visit to our home in Michigan when David was small, when we spent the evenings playing pinochle--good friendship. My sympathy to you and your family in this difficult time.

Dear Deenie, I was shocked to hear of Bill's passing. I know we haven't been in touch for a long time but I want you to know how much you & Bill helped us when Steven was little.Because of you two-I could help someone else.Your family will always remain in a special place in my heart!Will keep your family in my thoughts & prayers! Sincerely, Allen & Marcia Kester

Dearest Deenie: Bill was such a very kind and gentle man. He was always so very concerned about each person that was put in his path of life. Every time he entered our club his smile lit up the room. I will forever miss both of you, but today I am very greatful to our Heavenly Father that we had the time we did to share life together. Deenie, you were a valuable example to me of what true love is. I could only imagine that at the end of it all the Lord will say to you,Job well done good and faithful servant. My favorite verse is Psalm 46:10. Be still and know that I am God........ He holds our hearts and soul..Love Sharon Benson

Deenie, I was so sorry to read of Bill's passing. I know we haven't spoken in several months, but know that you and Bill have been in my thoughts. Please accept my sincere sympathy for you loss. May all of your precious memories be of some comfort to you and your family at this most difficult time. Linda

Hi Deenie~ So sorry to hear the news about your Husband, Bill~ My prayers are with you & your family during this holiday season! Take Care, Jackie LoVullo

We are so sad to hear of your loss. Your family is in our prayers.

Bill and I met at UB in 1953. I had transferred from the University of Rochester when my parents moved to Buffalo from Olean. We have been close friends ever since then. He was Best Man at my wedding in Louisville in 1962. He and Deenie became the requisite visits we made whenever we came to Buffalo to see my folks. Our kids visited with their 2 boys, as well. They also came to Chautauqua to visit us when we travelled there. Although we will miss Bill immensely we hope to continue to see Deenie regularly. Our prayers are with Deenie, Rob, David and the Grandkids in this time of grieving and always. Love, Gordon and Bette

Over 40 years of a wonderful friendship--hardly enough time. We will miss you greatly.

Dr. Bill will forever be in my heart. He was a special man who always took the time to inquire about my health and happiness. No matter what he was going through I was always greeted with a warm smile and his little chuckle/laugh of his. Our deepest sympathies go out to Deenie (my second mom), David, Robb and their family over their loss. Dr. Bill will truly be missed.

Deenie and family~ Our sincerest sympathy to you as you mourn the loss of your husband, dad and grandfather! I have such warm memories of Dr. Meithaner (and you all, although I still can't picture the boys as adults... I think they were less than ten when I saw them last!) and am so grateful that my mom has had some special times with you and him these last few years. Its been fun to hear her share stories of our common North Park UP Church days and University of Buffalo times! Blessings to you all and may your good memories of him help get you through this difficult time! Cindy, Jeff and family